I was in a relationship for 5 years, and it recently ended. This lost was something that I didn't want to happen, but my hands were tied because I kept feeling like I was on the outside of the relationship looking in. Always being thought of last when all I did was put this man first.
Then he had the audacity to say he doesn't know whether or not if he wanted to be in a relationship. I know though I had my faults, but was it that bad that I needed to be ghosted?
I go through the day thinking that things were my fault, and have dreams about him, knowing that my love for him is still great.
How do I get over this hump?
How do I get over this doubt, and need to want to be loved by him?
All I wanted and envisioned was to start a life with him, and be partners in everything. Uplifting each other, and being there when one or the other needed that support. Wanted nothing but honesty the whole way. Wanted that true love, which I thought I had.
I have cried, stopped eating, and invested so much time and effort into him that I don't know at the moment to be without him.
This feeling is sickening, and feels worse than losing someone to death. At least with death, you know it could not have been helped.
Please provide feedback,
Signed a broken LEO...
