Night Recap

As I take my ass to sleep, I can’t help but come to the realization about what happened tonight. 

Like always, Drizzy and I go to the park to smoke, drink and make fun of the other queens that like to chase their prey down. 

OOoohhh... but this particular night, I was bit by the voyeurism bug.

So as I’m walking around playing a game on my phone, I get a call from Drizzy telling me that there are 2 thick fine ass black men at stage 1. (Drizzy and I find each other by the different number of places we could be by assigning Each location with a number at the park)

So I proceed to tell him that it’s cool and go on walking around playing my game. 

As I get to stage 2 which is the jungle gym, I walk over still on my phone, not knowing I’m interrupting 2 men already fucking around... one Latin Lil bitch that’s completely naked, and a black man with a big ole dick shoving it into the lil bitches mouth. Once the black man saw me he bolted, and left the lil bitch struggling to put his clothes back on...

So once they were gone I sat done on the edge of the slide playing my game, still aware of my surroundings. I look up and see the 2 fine thick bearded black men walking around coming towards me. One with a raging hard on that you could see from a quarter mile away. 

But I’m not looking so I go back to my business on my phone. 

Before I could look up again, one of them was standing a good 6ft in front of me with his dick out. Looking back down at my phone I was unbothered by him. 

We played this game about 4 times before he was close enough to tap his dick on my lips telling me so open up... The audacity of this nigga to presume that I was going to suck his dick... I mean I did, but still! LOL

So anyways, I start sucking his dick, going in and showing him my skills, when out of no where his dude comes and my head was forced onto his bf’s dick. 

Now bf’s dick was so good and thick, and a great length. This made me even hornier, and I went from giving a 75% blow job, to 100% real quick. I start working on both dicks real good making sure to use all the spit I can to make their dicks as wet as possible. 

Pushing there dicks down my throat, the aggressive bf picked me up, turned me around and pulled my pants down and started eating my ass, all while the bf who had the better dick took to sitting where I was sitting, and that dick was still in my mouth... 

after the aggressive bf was done eating me out, he slipped a condom on and eased into this tight ass... I moaned in pure ecstasy! And the bf’s dick who I was sucking, lifted my head up and stuck his tongue down my throat. 

I couldn’t believe a peaceful night turned into a 3 some that I did not anticipate...

So I don’t know when this happen, but before I knew it bf with the better dick, had slipped a condom on, and I was riding on his dick making sure he knew how much he knew I wanted it all...

As I’m bouncing on the dick, I’m squeezing it making that hole  tight! All the whole the aggressive bf shoves his dick back down my throat. 

Several minutes later, I’m on my knees again, with the two fine black men standing over me jacking their dicks off... I’m going from licking both sets of balls to them shoving both their dicks in my mouth at the same time. As I reach up playing with both their nipples, I hear the aggressive bf start to moan... at this point I have taken my shirt off, and feel saliva dripping down my chest from me sucking both these dicks. 

Then out of no where, the better dick bf starts shooting all over my neck chest and nipples, and soon after his dude follows suit and adds his nut to my face... after all that they bust a bomb ass nut and leave me a lil cum whore 😒to clean up their mess... 

what a fucking night! 

Lost of a Great Love

I was in a relationship for 5 years, and it recently ended. This lost was something that I didn't want to happen, but my hands were tied because I kept feeling like I was on the outside of the relationship looking in. Always being thought of last when all I did was put this man first.
Then he had the audacity to say he doesn't know whether or not if he wanted to be in a relationship. I know though I had my faults, but was it that bad that I needed to be ghosted?
I go through the day thinking that things were my fault, and have dreams about him, knowing that my love for him is still great.
How do I get over this hump?
How do I get over this doubt, and need to want to be loved by him?

All I wanted and envisioned was to start a life with him, and be partners in everything. Uplifting each other, and being there when one or the other needed that support. Wanted nothing but honesty the whole way. Wanted that true love, which I thought I had.

I have cried, stopped eating, and invested so much time and effort into him that I don't know at the moment to be without him.

This feeling is sickening, and feels worse than losing someone to death. At least with death, you know it could not have been helped.

Please provide feedback,

Signed a broken LEO...

Screaming from the inside

At 31, I thought that I would be doing something purposeful with my life.
I lost my job literally 7 days before my birthday and was diagnosed with type 2 diabetes 14 days prior. Had to move back in with my parents a month later.

Also in a relationship that feels as though its going backwards rather than forward.

Personally speaking, I feel like currently I might be suffering from depression.

I find it hard to want to get up and move around, I don't want to shower, I don't want to brush my teeth.
But I try my hardest to put on a smile and go through the motion of being a good boyfriend, a good son, and even a good friend.

I try and be verbal for everything I need, but who really hears me.
Walking alone is lonely even when surrounded by people who say they love me.
You say you love me, but where are you... Its dark and cold; the only thing that brings me momentary comfort is me, laying in bed surrounded by my pillows that I can hug when I need to be hugged.

I have been doing research on what to do to manage this depression, but it is not easy.
They say,"Go work out... eat healthy... smile to trick your brain into thinking that you're happy..." blah blah blah.

Working out is only a temporary fix.

Eating right will make me get somewhat thinner, but I want my mind healthy!

I want to feel happy again, on a regular basis! I want to be able to feel appreciated, and I want friends who are there for me when I need them.

The best parts of me have been swallowed up, and used to where I don't have anything left to give. This feeling today is horrible and I think I need a hug and someone to tell me it will be ok.

50 shades of Blue

After sitting here watching this movie for the first time, I can't help but be turned on mentally, physically, and emotionally. Watching Christian Grey maneuver around his sex room made me envision you and all your glory. Shutting my eyes, I began letting my mind wonder. Having a sex room where behind closed doors 100% is driving me crazy. 

I can see me now on my knees, waiting for you to come home from a long days work and needing to punish your boy for being bad. First you would take out the flogger, and as you had it in hand your grip would get ever so tighter as you moved closer toward me. Once your crotch was inches away you would command me to take out your dick, already starting to grow hard. Then you would say to open my mouth, and when I obeyed, I would get a mouth full of dick. As your hips thrust your dick down my throat, your free hand grabs my hair to better control the movement so that they are fluid while the other hand begins to flog my lower back and hairy ass. After pumping my throats for a couple minutes, I feel my nipples grow harder, my own dick swelling and precum starting to flow. You notice and stop all together, and step back. Mouth still drooling at the incredible taste of that daddy dick. Then you also take notice that the floor has a mixture of precum and saliva from us both and instruct me to clean it up. I comply and start to walk away but not saying the magic words... you grab my wrist and instruct me to get back in the submissive position. You proceed to tell me,"you forgot something", all the while flogging me across my hard nipples just enough to bring redness to the surface of my skin. And quickly in a submissive voice, I bow my head and say, "yes sir".

After cleaning up the mess, you instruct me to lay face down as you bind both hands together. After, you tie down each ankle to a corner of the bed and tell me not to move or make a sound. As you completely disrobe, you crawl on the bed from in between my legs. My body quivering in anticipation on what was next, I could feel your breathe traveling up my spine and stopping at my neck just below my ear. You proceed to whisper, "Are You Ready?". I don't say anything and that angers you, so you whip me with a hunting crop. One strike to my ass, and I bite me lip as to not let out a passionate sigh. Then you say, "I didnt hear your response...", and that's when I said, "yes". WHACK! Another slap from the crop. A little whimper was released along with a "yes sir". Pleased with the instructions, you proceeded to kiss, lick and tease my back side knowing that with every tickle I needed to stay still because I was trying my best to comply with daddy's wishes. 

As you get down to my ass, already spread apart by the bonds on each ankle, you drag the crop down the crack of my ass. Whack! With my pulsating hole, you dive in and began to eat this ass, spelling your name on my hole with your tongue. As you taste this good good, you take the lube and rub it all over my ass and rubbing it on to my back. A drop trickles into my crack, and your tongue taste the cherry flavored lube which intensifies your hunger and sex drive............
TO BE CONTINUED.

The Climax

Feeling a sense of neglect of my own needs, I knew something needed to be done. So I did what any sensible person would do in my situation. Get a hotel room for two, and get ready for a good time. 

The day before, I told zaddy that I got us a room and that I needed him to break out all the toys cause baby needed to get dicked down real good. As I arrive I instantly start thinking about what will transpire upon my dudes arrival. As he called and told me he was at the front door, I slowly trotted over to the door with a little excitement. Opening it, I see him with a couple bags and that's all. A couple kisses and that was it for the time being. Like damn, can I get a little more?! 

So you know I was a little irritated. Like rip my clothes off now! But I waited. We chilled in the same bed for a good 3 hours just watching television and him on the apps. Y'all know what those apps are, no need for me to specify. Slowly I could feel my blood boiling, and the LEO in me was about to come out. That Leo cup was filled to the top. Therefore, he made a comment, and the pettiness came out saying I don't know why you on those apps when you got a damn near naked man laying next to you. (And did I mention the apps that he was on were all under my name and my picture; lol)

After saying that, zaddy took the hint and shifted his attention toward me. First he said to give him a kiss, which in my mind are 3 kisses back to back. But he stopped me mid kiss and said, "a real kiss". Right then I knew he wanted the kiss of life that I'm known for. The kiss that can make any dick leak precum. So I gave it to him. Instantly his dick came alive. Then as I strattled him, he began sucking on my big brown nipples. Loving the way he sucks and gives attention to each nipple makes me scream out in an intense sensual moan which he tells me he loves when I do it. 

 

M A D

I not sure how I feel anymore. I love my dude with all my heart, but something is off. I can't put my finger on it, but it doesn't seem like in the relationship he is in the now and not really looking towards the future. When we speak it is always about his work, his non profit work, his book club meeting, his friends business. Makes me think why are you with me. I am just looking to be intimate with him, and it's not all about sex. I just wish that all the energy he puts into everything else, he would put the same if not more energy into me. You say I'm with you but really... are you? I just want the same love and support I give this man to be given to me. Makes me feel like he isn't ready to tilt be commuted to me. Then if I say something I turn up to be the crazy one... See Leo's aren't crazy, we just want what we put in to our relationship or friendships. It's easy to be misconstrued but I guess I need to ride this wave and focus on self till this chocolate man catches up with his me in how he truly feels.

The Senses

As a Leo, I feel like my senses are hightened. The way I feel for him goes beyond what I've felt for anyone else, and possibly what I will feel in the future for anyone else.

Hearing him for the first time was something that my soul had longed for. His voice as soothing and calm as a warm summers breeze. Deep enough to command attention, with a hint of that Rico Suave we all know and love. From the moment he spoke my name I was intently intrigued by how he captivated me with his words.

Seeing him. As I saw his picture first, I thought nothing much of him. Just someone who possibly knew how to have a good time. In his picture, someone snapped a picture where he was caught off guard by someone dancing to probably one of his favorite songs. It was nice but not like damn!!! But when I finally got to see him in person, I was definitely intrigued further by this tall 6'+ man with Locs down his back. Chocolatly colored, I knew he was a force to be reckoned with. His hands were double the size of mine, and his muscles were somewhat on a swole status, just enough to play peek a boo through his shirt. His stomach not flat, but just right. just the way I like daddy to be! His back broad enough to be intimidating to others even though he is kind of a general giant. Nice plump booty, even though he would disagree with everyone who thought otherwise. Ok legs and a size 13 foot to support his sexy frame. 

Smelling him. He has a very distinctive smell to him. I won't reveal his scent because I don't want everyone walking around smelling like my man, but it's a musk that is truly intoxicating and makes me want to snuggle my nose in his neck for an eternity. His scent drives me mad! I  can fall asleep to him because it's calms my nerves. 

Tasting him. Now if I thought my mind was blown by the past 3 senses. Tasting him made me lose my mind! I'm trying to keep this pg but it's hard with this sense and the last. But BF eats a lot of fruit, and it makes him sweet. I love going down on him and not dropping a single drop that he explodes into my mouth! I love it so much so, that I'm addicted to it, I need it, I crave and get a little crazy when I'm not warranted it. LOL. 

Touching him. This goes both ways for me. Him touching me and me touching him. One of the most passionate sources of touching is the kiss. His lips are so soft, and arouse my body with each peck. Kissing for me is a gate way to erotic sensation. It gets me so wet to where I'm leaking so much, it's like I busted a fat nut in my briefs. The way he licks my nipples, sends a shiver up my spine. His touch on my lower back with his huge hands definitely send me over the top. The combination all 3: the kiss, the lick and the touching my lower back; makes my heart race, the moan intensify and makes the LION COME OUT TO PLAY! 

These 5 senses are crucial to me, and any Leo you come across. You must be able to keep our attention, keep us wanting more. Because without that it factor, our eye starts to wonder and we start to cultivate these 5 senses in someone else who can provide with intensity. If we tell you what we need, what we want, that's us crying out for your attention. We can be needy, but you give us what we need, and we'll give you the world. Corny, yes, but there is truth to that statement. 

Pray for us Leo's, because "how we suppose to stop being Crazy? How? How? How we suppose stop?" LoL