In love

So my previous blog was not totally accurate. I have found someone that I love. Let me start off where it all began. I was dating this girl from 2013-2014. I loved her and she was my world, and I would have never thought I would fall in love with a black woman. (That is another story for a different time) I loved her! But things started to change for me when some words came out of her mouth saying I don't have a problem with gay people I love them actually but what they do is nasty. Now I do not consider myself gay, but I do like both sex. Now, I wanted to give her all of me, but I couldn't tell her after that statement so I started to pull away from her till she dumped me. But in the mean time I was cheating on her and having sex with men during this pulling back moment. And In the process, I started talking to this wonderful man. He, I did not have sex with because I really was digging him. So once me and my ex broke up, I knew what I wanted and went for him. With him, I could be honest, tell him how I felt inside and not feel like he would judge me. I learned more about myself and he pushed me to be a better individual! With him I am madly, completely in love. Some times if I don't see him I get sick because I miss him. But when he ask me whats wrong, I tell him just an upset stomach. ahah Little does he know its love pains....