The hardest thing for me to do is to bury my uncalled for emotions. Sometimes in talking with an individual or my boyfriend, I can get very bitchy! Like I have friend who i just reconnected with and he said I bet you can be caddy can't you.... And to be quite honest, he was absolutely right!
So ALL NIGHT at work I rack my mind with what am I going to say to my boyfriend for not calling me back like he said he would. Or not telling me he made it home safely.... Then It hit me like a sac of potatoes. Stop, Rethink, and Revaluate.
I decided (since I am his alarm clock mon-fri) to call him with a cheerful voice and to not bring up anything negative. Im tired of being negative NANCY and being unhappy. Yes I will dwell on the situation at hand. But to know that I love this man and he I hope loves me, is all I need. Or I should need.
I swear writing this shit out def helps me sort through my feelings... Definitely going to try a more positive outlook on life. And we'll see how he responds.
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